Wednesday, September 18, 2013

oh god oh god oh god....

JUST made it in under a year...sheesh.

new things: Molly is in kindergarten! WHUT. yeah she is. and I've managed to get two days of daycare for the kids so I'm working more. I'm actually making a somewhat liveable wage now! but then I pay for the daycare know. but that's ok! I'm a million times happier than I was.

I might have mentioned it before that I've been struggling with crazy anxiety for years and years. I've tried many things that might help: counseling, therapuetic diets, holistic healing, naturopathic medicine...none of it helped and some of it made it worse. so I started taking the meds. CITALOPRAM. if you know me, you'll know that I don't even like taking advil when I have a headache. so this was kind of a big deal. and now...


I don't love that life is amazing because of a drug...but it is and that's that.
Listen up. If you're suffering from anxiety or depression, do everything you can to find something that works for you. because, for realz, I'm comepletely new. and I feel free. and know this: Even if we aren't friends or aquaintances, I probably love you, and I'm totally on your team.

ok, now that that's out of the way, let's get on to future planning (I am CONSTANTLY thinking about the future, which is likely why I suffered from anxiety in the first place...) I have many plans. to alter my house. here's the dillemma: we (a family of four) live in a 700sqft house...there is an unfinished, dungeon-y basement, 2 tiny bedrooms, one bathroom, no diningroom, and very little closet space.  I love this house. I never want to move. what can I do? do we finish the basement and add a bathroom down there? or should we try to make a play area/bathroom/master bedroom up in the attic where there is no staircase? I feel like the basement would be cheaper, which is always an important factor. ...ugh. it's all never gonna happen.

future renos that actually will take place: painting the outside of the house (already in progress) and renovating the girls' room (time to tear down the crib for good and set up the bunkbeds!)

photos to follow!

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